Worn out.



I'm like extra tired than usual. I mean, after training. I feel like I'm getting old or something.



Longest sleep in my life today. Believe it or not, I haven't slept for so long in my life before. Maybe I was tired after all that have happened this week. Well, I know, it's all me. Over-thinking results in over-working-brain.



Random thought:



Everyone cheers and applauses for performing groups like CG, Band, Dance or even Drama, but no one ever cheer or applause for the choir because they really sang well or something. Unless, you're some professional who seriously listens to every single pitch and note. Oh no, I'm not jealous or whatever. Just trying to say that no one would ever say, "Hey, good job choir." So, that's why, I don't really understand why we must be so in pitch sometimes. And, choir kinda sings boring songs. If there were some high school musical or some more "in" songs sung, even though we're not that in tune, I believe, people would really really enjoy our performance more. A LOT. Anyway, just some way to let people appreciate choir more and know their existence. Oh well, okay, this ain't a random thought, but about something I saw.





But, the sec 4s have had their last performance and I swear I wouldn't join choir in my higher institute or education anymore. Haha. Sorry, but it's a fact. Officially concluded that I'm not the 'Choir' or 'Band' or 'CG' kind. Not that I don't enjoy it, but it's so not for me. Haha.



Eh, what, I'm not supposed to get emo, angry or irritated now.



You know you know, I seriously feel like I'm having puberty #2. I feel exactly like how I felt back then when I was in Pri School: that 'being-irritated' feeling being very very uncontrollable. I'm so sorry, if I lost my temper for nothing. I really really hope I can control it, but it's so hard. Sometimes, I feel like I'm some unreasonable Auntie going through menopause. Urghhhhhh.....

Cab rules.



Woah, I spent 45 dollars on taxi within 2 days. Gawd, I rock. Haha. But, eh, serious, cannot cannot, must claim must claim. Hahaha.



Crescendo was tiring. Nevertheless, all of us had fun. Despite not being able to dress up nicely, seeing everyone dressing up nicely makes me feel so happy. Haha. I don't know, seldom have the chance to see everyone dressing up like that, so formally.



Boyfriend was dashing. Girls, don't snatch. :D



Saturdays are weird nowadays.

I'm tired.



OMG, rehearsals are so tiring. It's not that the rehearsals are tiring, but the long hours. Crescendo's tomorrow, extremely envious of the people who are going there as the audience and being able to dress up nicely..... Urgh, nvm, there's nothing I can do.



AHHHHHH, I miss you super much. Have been moaning about it to Esther at Jubilee Hall. "Keep that inside." That's what she told me. Haha. Argh, sorry dearest, I don't know what's up with me lately. Just too afraid to lose you.



Pretty much caught up with studies and today's the only day in which I decided to rest and just leave those books behind.



Am I supposed to look forward to crescendo tomorrow? Hahaha.

Time To Blog.



Okay, TGIF, it's friday again. Which means, tomorrow's speech day and the choir's going to perform once again, after not going on stage for such a long time. More looking forward to Crescendo though. But, you know, we have to spend 12 hours at Raffles Hotel, singing. Urgh, hope my voice doesn't go hoarse. (:



Yes, dear friends, sorry for neglecting all of you. Y' know, sometimes, I have to know what the problem is. (Type S, you see, "don't know what's going on) Trying very hard to tune back. At times, I just feel a little uncomfortable inside, cus of the sudden change. But, I don't mind, just don't want to lose all of you.



Hmm, I guess the problem really lies with me. The fact is, it DOES lies with me. Anyway, I feel so much happier these 2 days, although I know that there's still some sense of awkwardness. Well, you-know-who. Ya, I understand I understand. It's really a sudden change, even for me, I still feel a bit weird like that. Cus I'm being the 'long-lost' Ariel. Yes, so, I understand that it takes time, for things to be back to normal. But even if it couldn't, I don't blame anyone, it's my wrong, I can't do anything. Shall just be optimistic and move on, telling myself, "hey, you did something terrible, you've lost some people who were so close to you, don't do it again." Erm, somehow, I've got this feeling that it's not going to be the same anymore. Never felt so distant before.



First time, I see my boyfriend fence. Haha. But but, feel so proud and contented to tell myself that, "Hey, that's my boyfriend." (:



Well, I guess everyone's feeling super motivated to study hard now, right? Haha. See, super achievers really works. Mm hmm, so, everyone, study hard, it's just another 6 more months. Then, we all can really relax ourselves and not worry about the results for 2 months. I wouldn't want to worry about my results, knowing that I didn't do well and just waiting to see how badly I did. Haha.



OHHHHHH, it's raining, really heavily. Dampens the mood, like seriously.



Uh-huh, grandma's done with my 1 to 1 half hour dinner. (:

Super achievers day 2.



Hmm, thought that it would be boring, dead, lifeless and all the negative stuff, but it turned out to be 'not bad, quite fun, quite interesting'. Haha. It isn't useless or a waste of time. Can really learn something from there. (: Woah, promoting high achievers. Hahaha. But seriously, it's quite useful.



Weekends felt weird. Maybe because there was an extra public holiday. Aww, I don't know if Good Friday rock or not. Yeap, really felt so happy for the fact that I can spend it with boyfriend, but the rating of it went down the slope since we watched Ju-on. Omg, my first horror movie in a cinema. Almost burst out into tears, I swear. Oh god, am I supposed to watch horror movies again? Hahaha. But anyway, had a few sleepless nights. Still not daring to switch off the lights when I'm alone. Nvm, I shall have it all bright then. Don't really like my house to be dark though.



Training on Sunday was extra tiring. It was raining. (What a nice time to rain, right?) So basically the balls were all wet and we were all drenched. Glad enough that I didn't fall sick yesterday. PHEWS.



Rehearsal for speech day today. It was hottttttttttttttt to the core. Haven't wore stockings ever since I was 6 when I had to wear the ballet-like ones for wedding dinners. Apparently, many couples were getting married at that period of time. Plus, the stockings were jet black luh. Oh well, I'm not moaning or anything. Ya, I am luh. But, I felt like I was trapped in an oven. Haha.



Oh yes, my phone died on me.............